Some clarification

I don't want anyone to take this the wrong way, it's not meant to be a personal afront to anyone but a number of occasions have come up recently and it's made me want to go out of the way to explain one decision in peritcular that Arpee and I have made.
When NewCov let me go, my first thought was that I would volunteer with the 5th/6th grade students because they mean so much to me. I thought I would do this until I either got another ministry job or I would continue to do it if I got a "day job" meaning a non ministry job during normal working hours.
However, as time passed particularly a very gut wrenching Sunday I realized this isn't possible. There are two reasons for this, one is that is it very hard to divorce yourself from a situation  like that and it's even harder to do it partially meaning to do the same thing but scaled back. The other thing is that I don't believe that it's fair for: the kids, because they don't know who to look for for leadership, for volunteers because they don't know how to communicate with you and they feel like allegiances are splitting and lastly for church staff who have to figure out how to deal with you.
One example in my own life that I have is when I did Junior High ministry in the Summer before they hired Jimmy to do it. When he took over I decided to stay on as a volunteer. It was very difficult because I had to defer the kids to Jimmy as much as possible and it was strange for my volunteers who I recruited to go looking at a new leader while I am still standing there. It was also hard emotionally too, and in this present case it is all the harder because I've known these kids 2 or 3 years each.
All this to say that we aren't just "picking up our ball and going home." We aren't leaving because we are perticulaly mad or anything like that. As unhappy as I am with the decision I hope for nothing but the best for NewCov and I know they do will great things for God's kingdom.
I ask you this. Please understand that this isn't simple church shopping for Arpee and myself, this is a major part of us being torn out and we are trying to find out way and figure out how the whole money thing will work out in the mean time.
Criticize us if you like but I think you should see the entire picture first.